Hey All!
I hope all is well in your world. I'm just sitting on my couch talking to Sarahhhh and watching clean house. I just realized that even though you can't change your first impression.. you always have a second impression to make. Take for example, my friend Nafis. The first day he moved to my school last year, I found out he was from Salem, Beverly's rivalry. My friend Emily and I decided to yell "Don't get beat up Salem!" at him... I felt horrible about that, and now, he is one of my best friends. So, like I said, there's always a second impression to make after a first impression.

I've been driving a lot more lately. Now, even though it is illegal, my parents let me drive on my own, or with Sarah with me, and only Sarah. It's a lot of fun, but I'm obviously still nervous about getting caught. The thing that eases my mind though, is I drive the same whether my mom is in the car or not, and I've never been caught with my mom in the car.

Man, I love to blog. It lets me get absolutely everything out.. And It feels so good. So, yeah.. In a little while, I'm going to decorate my room in a little while.. I need to do something new, and that sounds like a good idea.

Okay, so we're watching this show Urban Ledgends and right now, its about these three guys who took LSD? It's fucking retarded, but hilarious at the same time. I fucking love hippies. I love them.. Man, I really need to stop saying the word fuck. Oh well.. This blog is apparently rated PG-13 due to language.

So, I really like this guy... A LOT and I've been talking to him a lot lately..and like the past few days, he's simply unresponsive.. I'm majorly freaking out.. maybe someone told him I like him..? Or maybe... IDK!! AHHHHH!

Well.. I don't have much to blog about anymore.. More later <3

Peace, Love, Music.
XO Molly

Mon iPod.

Hey everyone!

I hope all is well in your world. Im cleaning out my ipod right now. I filled my 30G up.. so now I'm trying to get stuff I NEVER listen to out, for stuff I will listen to. It is so so so hard. I'm attached to all my music. Sarah just left, she had been here since... Monday. Well.. she was here friday and saturday, went home sunday, and then came back monday. So I spent the last like.. 7 or 8 days with her. We surprisingly didn't get too annoyed with one another.

Did anyone hear that insane rainstorm this morning? It was crazy. The thunder woke me up. I love thunder and lightning and rain, but we need a little summer! Today, I was walking with sarah to CVS.. and she had her reddish hair and a purple dress and green flip flops on. I was wearing a neon pink shirt, a pink and orange skirt, and I had my blue hair :D. So, while walking down 1-A some guy honks a bunch of times and yells you guys are very colorful today.. and smiled and drove away, it was so funny, we talked about it for hours. 

OH! So last night, we bought a baby doll and made it look asian, then we put a country CD in the box with it, put an obscene bumper sticker in it, and wrote obscene things all over the box, then brought it to our friend Tim's house, and left it there. He wasn't even home. We then told everyone we had just dropped an illegitimate baby off at his house. It was hilarious.. Now, he's going to mutilate it and give it back... I can't wait to see this, it should be hilarious. There's a whole long explanation behind the whole thing, but it's kind of stupid, and I guess you had to be there. 

I'm gauging my ears! Im now up to a size 4. I bought a pair of 2's last night, well.. Sarah did, and I need to pay her back, haha. I am very excited. I am very irritated though, because SOME PEOPLE have my gauges and I'm really pissed off at SOME PEOPLE and I want them the fuck back. (..sorry) [/rant]

I now need to go find said gauges, because I don't know where I put them, and then I also need to look for some more music, and make something yummy to eat.. Maybe I'll make beef flavored Ramen.. I had it for lunch, but I love it. 

Peace, Love, Music.

xo Molly

Hmm..

Hey everyone!

I hope all is well in your world. So I realized that basically no one reads this. I kind of love writing it though.. hm....

So School is almost over, yay! I don't mind school so much, but I love being free for the summer.. staying up late and sleeping til 2. I love camping for weeks at a time... going to concerts.. hanging out with everyone. I love it. I am gonna miss all my seniors though :[. So sad. I love you all sooooo much. Im very proud of you all too! Letters to my seniors:

Tori Tori Tori,

I'm gonna miss you pretty much the most! You're amazing. I never fight with you. I don't feel like I have to hold back with you either. I can be myself and you love it. And you're always gonna be my goofy muffin. When I tried to write in your yearbook, none of this would come. Now, I find myself wishing I wrote this in there. I'm crying thinking about next year without you. Not only because I will miss you, but because I'm so happy for you and I want you to be the best you can be. Life without you around is totally going to suck, but it's the best for you. And, its a good thing you aren't going toooooo far. I love you so so so so so so so much. You're always behind me 100% and tell me if what I'm doing is stupid. I trust you with all my heart, and I know you're going to be completely successful in life. 

Mystery Person,

You make me so happy. Not in the giddy school girl way. (Well that way too, but thats not what I'm talking about.) You're so funny, and I can always count on you when I need to laugh. You gave me something to look forward to in my day. You still do. Whenever I feel upset I just think and I'm like wow.. I wish they were here. They'd just slap me and tell me to be happy because it isn't worth it. So, basically I'm going to miss your goofy grin, and your great sense of humor.. and just everything about you. I see something in you that sometimes I don't think other people see. I'm so proud of you for graduating. I know, and you should know now, that you can do anything you want to, and I think you will. Thanks for always seeming to be there even when you don't realize you are.

Leeann,

I really have only been talking to you since the beginning of this year. I'm so happy that we had that first epic video game night. You've got me addicted to Fable. I love you and your hat of epic win. Sarah's really going to miss you. You're a part of her. I don't know where you're going to college, but we have to have some more epic video game nights when you come back home. :D

All my other seniors,

I will miss you all to much to measure. You're all important to me. I hope you all have fun and do well in whatever you choose to do. I hope our paths continue to cross, and I hope we never lose touch. xo

Wow, I don't know where all that came from. It all just poured right out of me.

I think that I'm done for the night.

Peace, Love, Music.

XO-Molly.

As of late.

Hey all,

I hope all is well in your world!

VACATION!! I am officially on April Vacation as of today at 2:35 PM! I love vacations. I have nine glorious days to relax; (and read "A Raisin in the Sun.") My English teacher assigned us to read a while book over vacation. Bummer! Oh well, at least I read fast. 

Nothing new has happened lately. I had a birthday party a few weeks ago. I went out to Friday's with a bunch of friends an then we came back to my house and played karaoke. Fun, Fun, Fun. ('til her daddy took the T-Bird away.) I got a lot of really cool makeup for my birthday too. :D. I have officially been turned into a girl. haha. 

Today was the national Day Of Silence. There were a lot of participants at my school. I was surprised, but excited. I made it most of the day, but I had an asshole teacher who pretty much made me talk. I was so mad. Whatever. I really don't like him. He teaches this gym-like class. I had to swing standing up from tire-to-tire hung up by suspension cables. NOT FUN. I failed miserably. I was shaking uncontrollably from the embarrassment. It was just horrible. I was the only one who couldn't do it, out of everyone. I might have been able to if I didn't have 12 pairs of eyes staring at me knowing I couldn't. 

I have no life. It's a friday night, and I have nothing to do. All my friends are hanging out, and they didn't invite me. They have pretty much been ignoring me for like the past three weeks. I hate it. I hate stupid people. I hate when people tell you about how awesome their boyfriend is when they know you like their boyfriend. When they knew you liked him before they even met him. IT SUCKS BALLS! I fucking hate it. It's ridiculous. I just want to tell people to shut the fuck up sometimes, seriously. [ / rant ]

Oh well. That's all for now kiddies. 

Peace, Love, Music.

Molly XO <3

Hey all,

I hope all is well in your world. I'm typing from my chemistry class right now. I can't type too much, because the teacher might get suspicious. I'm probably going to be eating in the library and I'll edit then. 

Bedtime. <3

Hey all fellow bloggers.

I hope all is well in your world. I am actually about five minutes away from falling asleep on my key board. I don't think that's good. So I walked a relay for life last friday. It was awesome. Anyone who hasn't experienced it.. should. It was very sad though, especially to those of us who have lost someone to that horrible disease we call cancer. I'll admit I cried. It was all night though, and being tired on top of being emotional equals tears. There were so many activities to keep us awake though. Hip Hop lessons at like 10. We learned a routine to Lady Gaga's - Poker Face. It was funny. We also had "Endicott Idol" since it was held at Endicott college. I sang 1985 by Bowling For Soup with a couple friends. We "made it to Hollywood." There was a 3:30 AM dodgeball tournament. Along with whiffle ball at 4AM. The psychic was my favorite part though. It was a bonding experience. We all sat around the door of the psychic's room and compared readings. M(arry). F(uck). B(ridge AKA throw off of). You give a person 3 guys or girls and they have to choose the option they would do with/to the each one. It gets pretty silly. 

My neurologist has started me on medication for my migraines. It's called Elavil. He's upped my dosage twice already. I expected that though, because its only 10 MG tablets, so right now I'm taking 3 nightly. I started at one. I hope it works, because he said he'd have to do a spinal tap to test the pressure if it didn't work. I realllllly do not want to have to have a spinal tap. My teachers aren't giving me any slack either, which makes everything soooo much worse. I hate it. 

I made a shitload of cookies for a bake sale that my schools pink ribbon club held today. It was such a success. We made probably over 100 dollars. I was so proud of us. Many teachers said it was the best bake sale they've ever seen at school. It was absolutely amazing. I'm the treasurer of the club, so I was obviously pumped. I made snickerdoodle cookies, peanut butter cookies, bark, and a ton of cupcakes. I wasn't the only one who baked either. It was amazing words can't even begin to describe.

Well I'm typing with my eyes closed right now because I'm so tired. I'm peacin' out to sleepy land now. 

Lots of love,

Molly  XO 

Humiliation.

Hey all,

I hope all is well in your world. I feel completely humiliated right now. I have this class at school called "co-op," and it is horrible. When we were playing tag and just doing things like that it was okay but now.. not so much. Today we each had to swing on a rope and make it across into this hula hoop and if anyone messed up the whole class had to start over. Now, I'm not very skinny.. realistically, I'm huge. So, when it was my turn.. 9 people had made it over, and only 2 were left after me. I only swung about a foot and fell because I don't have any strength in my arms. I fell, and rolled on my ankle.. and everyone was upset because we had to start over, so I pretended my ankle was hurt more than it was, and I went to the nurse. I was crying so hard because of how humiliated I was, that I got a migraine. I ended up going home, thank god.

More tomorrow. I have a bake sale first thing in the morning tomorrow. I need sleep!

lots of love,

Molly XO

I Need To Get Away.

Hi,

I hope all is well in your world. Ah! So sarah left her laptop at my house, and I'm absolutely LOVING it. It makes me so happy. I don't have a laptop unfortunately. 

I love reading so much. Im re-reading this series of books called Diary Of A Crush. I love them. Its written as if it was this girl Edie's diary. It's really girly and mushy, but it's by this british author, and I just love how they're written. It's a trilogy and I'm finishing the third book for like.. the fifth time. Sarra Manning is the author, and I love her writing. She's written a few books. Guitar Girl is another one of her popular books. I'd really recommend her to people who like girly books.

I really want to get away from Beverly right now. I really don't want to be here. I'm sick of acting like an idiot in front of the guy I like. I'm sick of drama. I'm sick of stupid bitches at my school who wont leave me alone. I really just want to get away. Leave every person who even has an inkling of who I am behind, and go. I don't want to deal with all the people I do here. I mean I love my friends and stuff, but I'm just sick of being stuck. I just want to walk away and not look back, just go for a while, and come back when I'm ready to face home.

MIGRAINE UPDATE :

My primary physician was on vacation when I went to see her, so I had to see another doctor. The doctor didn't really know what was wrong by my symptoms, but she looked in my eyes, and apparently the disk that is behind your eyes looked a little hazy which can mean there is a build up of pressure which is BAD. She sent me to a eye surgeon. The surgeon was an asshole first of all. He was in pediatrics, so he was like.. why is this girl here basically. So he did all kinds of tests and looked in my eyes and said I was okay. So the doctor was really stumped after he called her and told her that. She wanted to see me the next day. I made an appointment for 11:00. Then at around 10:00, they called and said there wasn't really anything they could do. She said she wanted me to see a neurologist. He looked me over and said my coordination was really off. Other than that I seemed okay, and he sent me to the radiology wing of the hospital to have a CT scan. That day was the scariest day of my life. I have a HUGE fear of doctors, hospitals, etc. I spent four hours in the hospital that day, most of which was just waiting to get the CT scan A.K.A. Catscan. That was kind of scary too. You get up on this table and you lay on a lead pad, and they put one on top of you too, then they wrap you up like a burrito. And this thing goes around and around your head and... I didn't like it at all. When we got the results back, the doctor just said, well it looks fine, you just have a prolonged migraine. Then told me not to go to the gym or my Co-Op class.

I basically have no life whatsoever. I go to school. I come home. I read, watch TV, and go on the computer, I do little/no homework, I go to bed, I get up, and do it all again. Sometimes, if I'm lucky, someone will come over after school, but its usually just Sarah. I love Sarah <3.

I think that's a long enough post for you all.

Lots of love,

Molly XXXX

Dirty Dancing Among Other Things.

Hi All,

I hope all is well in your world. I saw Dirty Dancing yesterday at the Boston Opera House. IT WAS AMAZING. I loved every minute of it. Some people don't know how to behave at a show, though. This woman in front of us was dancing in her chair, but not just wiggling around, she was throwing her arms in the air and stuff. The man next to her laughed extremely loud at everything, even if it was so annoying. I loved the show though. It was awesome. "I carried a watermelon! ... I carried a watermelon?!" "Nobody puts Baby in a corner." AH! It was awesome.

I went to my friend's Sweet 16 on Saturday! That was also quite amazing. There was probably 100 people there. She had some Monsters, and I got one of them. haha. It was Techno themed, so everyone was wearing BRIGHT colors. I wore green leggings, and orange shirt with a pink one underneath, and a short, simple, strapless black dress over it. We danced all night. There was only a little drama, thank god. It was so hot there though. Oh man. 

I have a snow day today, which is why I'm writing this. I have the time on my hands, even though I should be doing my Chemistry Lab Report, or my English Essay on Catcher In The Rye. My migraine is still here on and off. I had a really cute dream last night / this morning. I slept from 2:00 AM until 2:00 PM. 12 hours of a dead sleep. :D.

Well, I need to do that homework now.

Love to you all,

xoxo Molly.

Migraines.

Hey All,

I hope all is well in your world. I've had this fucking migraine for the past two days. It sucks big time. I had never had one before, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I got a headache yesterday morning and it progressively got worse. Tylenol and Ibuprofen do not help at all. The Excedrine Migraine is helping a little. I slept from 4:45 until 9:45 last night.. and then from 2:00 AM until 7:00 AM. That's the only time my head doesn't hurt. I had a chemistry test first thing this morning, so I went in and took it, and then got dismissed. I should have just stayed home and taken it on Monday. I could barely concentrate on the test because my head was killing me. Oh well.

I'm looking for something new to draw. I think I've put my final touches on the Craig Mabbitt picture I drew. I love to draw, It relaxes me. I love baking because the end result makes other people happy, But baking makes me happy because I feel accomplished. I have that end result to look at and I can say "Hey, I'm good at something."

I just edited my myspace. I like to edit it for me, even if people don't look at it. I can make it exactly how I want it, you know. I love it. I also find a lot of new music there too. Anyway, my migraine is back, and roaring. I'm going to go lay down. 

Lots of love to all,

Molly <3

Diet Tribe.

Hey all,

I hope all is well in your world. I've lost 12 pounds on my diet so far! I started about a month or two ago. I started with my friend mittens. I actually lived with her for almost two weeks. It was pretty good, but we got in stupid nit picky fights. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. Two weeks with no carbs. It was horrible. I'm so sick of bacon eggs and sausage. It isn't even funny. Now I'm back home, and I'm doing Weight Watchers. It's a really great program. I don't have to restrict myself from having the foods I want, I just have to eat them proportionally. Instead of like three cups of pasta I only have one now, and if I want a Coke, I have one, not five. I actually like going to the gym. I feel accomplished after I go. I go with my friend Rachael and sometimes my friend Alycia. It makes it kind of fun when you have someone else there with you, and you can laugh while you're doing it. The only problem is, pretty much everyone I've ever met in my life goes there to work out. 

I've stopped drinking monster, which was very difficult. I used to drink AT LEAST one every day, now i have like one a month. It took a while for the headaches to stop, but they have now. I still want one every day, but it makes them all the more enjoyable when I have one if I haven't in a while. I actually go to lunch in the cafeteria now, which is kind of weird if you ask me. I don't really like it, it's too noisy and crowded, but its better than being alone in the library. lol. 

February 22, 2009 was one of the best nights of my life. I saw Attack Attack!, William Control, Black Tide, and ESCAPE THE FATE. It was absolutely amazing. I kind of just hung around in the back a little for the first three bands, but before Escape the Fate, I pushed forward and got to like the 5th row. When they actually started I knocked people out of the way and made it to the second row. It was so amazing. Craig Mabbitt came towards the crowd and I got to touch him. And he spit water into the crowd and it hi me :D. I know that sounds really gross, but at the time it was really awesome. I took so many pictures. I even drew a picture of Craig, and it came out pretty awesome if I do say so myself. Im still on an adrenaline high from that night. 

I just finished The Catcher in the Rye in English. It was a pretty good book, but my teacher pretty much killed it. He made us go over the same aspects of it over and over again, and it just put me off. I need to write a five paragraph essay on whether or not it is still relevant to today's youth. I think I'm going to use examples of both. I think the main relevant point is depression in adolescents. I think a lot of today's youth has depression. Many adolescents go through depression, like Holden, and that definitely hasn't changed over the some 60 years since the book took place. 

Alright, so I've been blogging now for about a half an hour. I'm going to try to blog a lot more often now. 

Love to you all,

--Molly.